one of my favourite things is seeing posts like this that are clearly a reference to some fandom or piece of media, but having no idea what it’s referencing, so i’m just reading it like. yeah that would be weird huh
I only found out this morning and I’m selfishly glad I did. It all hit me around 10am this morning, twice I had to step away to my work station and cry. We can’t keep going through this, at least not so close together. It’s come to the point where on instagram people are just listing all the boys we’ve lost in the last six months and I can’t handle it anymore. Reita especially, where they won’t tell us how it happened, and all we have to go by is the staff saying “confused” and “sudden” and Aoi saying he plans to give Reita “a stern talking to” when he himself gets there. So either it was a dumb accident or the one thing none of us wants to say. I hate this speculation. Telling us is better.
But I don’t have the space to grieve this one. I have *checks notes* 9 more days of unceasing work hell (even weekends) to survive before I can. But today, bad things mixed with good things mixed with pure exhaustion and I sat on the floor next to my work cart in the dark and cried.
I don’t have brain cells for speaking well on this right now, but bottom line we can’t keep going through this. Especially not so soon after Atsushi. We just can’t.
